神经

钱不够用！

想轻松一些赚钱都不行
是一定要挨生挨死才会发达是不是
汗颜







不想啦
睡觉去
不懂怎么突然 '发钱寒'

奇怪

不应该眷恋过去
我知道
但宁静的夜总爱乱想
尤其翻看以前的一切
总让我觉得有一种特别，又不曾拥有的感觉

以前的这个时间，我总是在等你电话。
以前的电话内容，我都大略记得。
不知什么时候，我开始恋上这一种情感，
一种归属感。 却没有爱情。


这些日子以来，不找你，不联络你，不是为了逃避你，不是怕尴尬，也不是不再当你是朋友，而是不敢让你抱有希望，怕你伤心怕你烦恼于猜测。

我仍然记得半年前你说的话，＂我真的没有机会吗？＂ 煞是心疼，但我的答案是事实，也许你怪我狠，但你会学会更珍惜你所拥有的。

也许说了那么多，你也没机会看见。
也许说了那么多，也只是觉得我在放屁。

但今晚这一句是真的，

不知怎么的，今晚特别想你。

PH4M

please
don't let me feel disappointed again

17th OCT

you never fail to make me emo

妈的
你不知道我多想你

apology

im sorry
but the hardest thing is to change what had happened
and often,the impossible one.

遗憾
这是我最后能给你的词
无法挽留的遗憾

big day =)

thank you
aligato
xie xie
terima kasih
duo jeh

thank you everyone for the wishes
thank you meow eh la, ah loon la, jessica la, ke li si yin yao la, lalalala....
owh but,
pumpkin was the one wished me first =)
but end up we have a lil fight
hmm

received voice msg from ah yang
oh god touching dou sei
luckily u're not here
or else gonna hug u gao gao!!

叮叮

也许不到必须要考虑的时候
都不会去想

但还是会做错决定
还是会不甘心

但已没有‘如果’
只能继续
而这决定，从来都不是我做主
所以，没有对 或者错

imma emo pig

why the feeling still here..?
i have no idea what's the feeling
but it's bringing me down..
so difficult to express
so hard to let go

why i let myself to be in such situation again?
like again and again?
one day karma will definitely come to me.
why is people so selfish?
why is life so unfair?

...
i just want to apologize, to no one?
how ironic.

我知错了~

what makes you think she won't get hurt by your words?
what makes you think she's suppose to be strong?
what a selfish girl you. shermay loh.

teee heee

havin study break for a week
duh the first day alr slept for 14 hrs
gawd don't make me be lazy again.

i should start revise previous topics..
gahhh maybe i should start tmr??
but tmr ada outing wif babes
XD study? oh forget it.

KNS

urgh..
gastric or stomachache?
moody weh,i hate this.
hands shivering summore,damn.






feel like wanna tattoo larh.
at lower abs
mummy pls let me buat tattoo.
hmm.

urgh.boy

u want things go exactly what you thought?
pls lar wake up, u thought life still like a fairy tale.
life is tough okay.
u can dream whatever dream u want to,
but is during night time okay.
the next morning wake up d then back to the real world pls.
don't expect people to tolerate u again and again kay.
childish boy.
i'll definitely give u a slap if i could,
and one day you will thank me for that slap.

yier spoil my mood nia,
fan.

last

packed things that you left in my house
and i found a paper bag
you gave me when we celebrate our first valentine's day
i wouldn't forget what's inside this paper bag
i saw the paper bag,and i cried
memories recalled.
i dare not to think what happened during this 800days after we split up
because i know tears will fall.
few days later, it will be the last time i go to your house.
one last time.

tell me you're good without me.
please.
because u know i will.

也许不应该这样看自己
但我真的觉得自己是个烂东西

不再要求什么了
不需要太成功
不需要太聪明
只要日子开心就好了
做自己想做的


‘活在当下’
我想起了某某曾经对我说的一句话

if i tell you it wasn't hurt
im lying to you.
is just tired to love someone
and you'll just leave like this
even you have to bare all the feelings with yourself
getting frustrated is just much more worse than you don't love anymore.
trust me.




what does the tears mean?
it doesn't matter anymore.

泪

依然不足够吗？
贪心的你到底需要多少？
就不能够站在我的立场想一想？
我没有选择
因为全世界的人都不够我爱你
我敢这么说，这是事实
但你却利用这原因来伤害我
我不知道自己为什么还在保护你
不要让我累了，然后离开
要不我不会再回来。

zzz

can't hide my laziness
i just wanna throw marketing textbook away and sleep now
god
i duwan success
i want my bed pls.

2 mins later...
started to emo
what if m studying psych now
i wouldn't say this.
not even once.
hmm =(

10sec later
okay mood swings again
i shall study for it
pass this subject and never ever touch that book again.
yoyo!!!!

yii

effin god
exhausted.
what a saturday XD

ps: wantan i love you don't give up ur dream =)
tho i wish u can study with me so i can fetch u to sch everyday.

sweet talker.
shouldn't believe in you.

you made me felt m never a matter to you
i see ur smile, you live ur life happily
i feel better
yet i feel bad 'coz i realized my choice was correct
you smile even resplendent than i used to see
is that mean we were wrong to be attached?
btw ur smile showed that you're relieved
this is what i hope to see.
i failed to be a good gf, maybe this is why i never see you smile like that.

再见

phobia
我已经没有勇气当重要的人
想逃
但并不是因为不爱
是害怕有朝一日
我需要伤害你

如果有一天
你在街上遇见了我
请给我一个笑容
让我知道，没有了我
你依然很幸福

+

another lock in your blog
how many locks i have to open to enter into you heart.
please don't make me feel frustrated.

yea

and now im pretty sure about that.

tik tok

i can't wait
why is the time so slow to reach monday

i can't bear the sadness anymore
i hate being ignored
hate being abandoned
i don't deserve all these from you you know?

gahhhhh
i don't like to be emo pun
i really don't like
but...

wee =)

dyed my hair today
hor the guy's serivice damn cha ler
rude sial

is copper colour
quite like the colour actually
rm200 fly jor~
but m satisfied
ngeks

Ay Arr Gee Eff

what so big deal ??
just tell urself u don't fucking care
just lie to urself
say you don't give a damn to what's happening on her

i wish i could bring this secret to the hell
yea not heaven but hell coz i did such wrong thing !
something that can crushes a good person's heart
into million pieces. damn

btw is just a wish
i knew what will happen at the end
sometimes i hope m cold-blooded


*bang ur head to the wall so u can stop the brain function for a moment

< 3

i love blogspot
it reminds me there's no way for me to post private posts.
just like if you wants to post private posts,
rather not to.

Emm

i don't really likes to gossip
since i was 16 i started to gossip less
'coz i've been heard too many things
no matter all that were supposed to let me know

i knew
or i don't
it never be a matter to me
if you want to tell
i listen
if you don't
i don't cherish it also
i wouldn't beg you to tell me just because i care about you
either you're good friend,or lover (i don't have best friend)
sometimes even i really wants to know
i wouldn't show too
so if it ends up with you told me nothing
i will not feel sad

girls gossip
boys gossip
because they gossip
i knew how horrible it can be
it can change ur view to someone
even you don't really hate the person
if someone else is the easily get influenced type
please don't teach the person ur concept
because u may changed the person's personality as well

just
just gossip less okay
it just making u all become so...
so
repugnant


i used to love gossip
but not anymore
m still curious
but I've trained myself not to show it
even i gossip
i skipped all those sensitive issues

and m not scolding ANY ONE
please don't fucking misunderstood okay
m not saying gossip is not good
is just that if you couldn't control urself well
maybe sometimes u just need to STFU okay
it saves you from trouble


and if you thought you're such straight forward
and can talk in ' i don't fucking care' slang
then don't gossip
i dare you don't have the guts to do so
and m sorry to tell you're just acting cool
it's not straight forward
just please stop being stupid
peoples are laughing
but you thought you're so COOL
isn't that pathetic?


just
ergh.
speechless d

=((

nowadays the weather's so hot
even just sittin in front of lappy can sweat
beh tahan~~

and my face sensitive again
'coz of the stupid weather
=( =(
so ugly lar why must before CNY
sad
have to waste money to buy product
my face so ugly now.
SAD
feel like crying whenever i look at the mirror
GOD save me from this pls.

>:(

i want my life
my OWN life
you have no idea
how desperate m i now
m seriously hate you
wants to leave but just don't have the guts
i love you
but i hate u.

bye bye

went tgif today
ah joe n decepticon let us 'wan can'
XD XD

joey goin to aussie for 3 yrs
:'(
3 years man.
will definitely miss you a lot
sifat joe ngek ngek

will c u next year okayy
must find us when u come back..!!
*big hugg

RaR

just viewed my old blog
found out shermay was an emo girl huh
although now just a lil bit better as compare with the past

and i found an article about my personality test
seriously matches my personality
m so admire those psychologists AGAIN

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

except of the readiness of starting relationship part

the others are sooo right..!!

but still, you wouldn't know me except u find out yourself right

peoples have different point of views

today is 4th of FEB

feeling not so good now 'coz 7th WCW'll be going back to Sarawak

aiks 3 more weeks only she come back to kl

sad =(

the 25th

well
today is the 25th months
2yrs + alr.

m not that happy as i thought
something has been happened this month
m so confused

how this will end?
in what way?
dare not to think about it
i shouldn't selfish
i know.
but self-control seems very hard to me
and everything seems insecure
and so unsure.



u, couldn't understand.

=(

i don't wish to think too much
maybe m just too sensitive
but i really hope that you didn't change
i really need a sense of security right now..!!

hmm

my blog is so dead now...
just like my life...
i realized even i found job and work everyday
still so lifeless
still boring
and tired
but now i don't hope that getting any off day anymore
'coz i will go out and shop
spent a lot recently
XD

relationship with dar is getting better?
don't think so
is just it doesn't goes worse
feels like something going to change?
maybe am just think too much..?
feels so helpless...
aiks...
maybe am just too tired...
should sleep earlier.

happy new year =) 2 years anniversary

happy new year~
2010 jor...
19 jor =(
old...

btw today is also our 2 yrs anniversary
=)
2 years d...
hope can last longer with dar

hmm
but today still need to work
tired